I LOVE MY LIFE: A bad turn

I LOVE MY LIFE: A bad turn: i don't know whats wrong with me.. i am so sad about it i feel so bad what i am doing. someone truly love me and someone doing use me. ...

A bad turn

i don't know whats wrong with me.. i am so sad about it i feel so bad what i am doing. someone truly love me and someone doing use me. but problem is that i attract with the one who use me. he have to used me. at start he shows that is care of me but when i with him he totally  ignore me. i so much heart his behavior. what should i have to do??? i compel due to my feelings. i enable to control  my feelings. i really want to leave this person but problem is that he is so bad he used me after that he said he is only my friend.
 this thing so much hurt me. i want to give a strong answer with a high altitude if anybody read my post so please help me for this..

i am happy in my own way..

Now i feel free, i know my weakness but i have to remove it. no one can use me why i give a chance to any one that he can use me. i am special i am best so why i feel bad when anyone don't give special attraction to me.. its only happens because they think i am weak i compel to my heart.. but he don't think that if my heart want a person truly so it also can ignore him truly why i tolerate my insult. if they think i am only a thing that he want to use so he use and when he want to through so he through. why???? 

now enough everything will be in my way. i am happy with the person who love me most who care of me ...when i have the one best buddy so why i need other one. yes